Owning Only One Car

Assalammualaikum

Currently, Akmal and I are using only one car.
We are sharing his red Proton Saga.
I returned the Kelisa I've been using since my A-Level years to mum, and now my sister is using it for her class.

The plus point, I don't have to pay for a car loan.
The minus point (but can also be the plus point), we always have to take turns to use the car.

Say...I work a morning shift (until 5pm) but Akmal works long shift (until 10pm), which means I will drive the car home at 5pm and come back to the hospital to fetch Akmal at 10pm. If he finishes his work late (which is usually the case), I will need to wait until he finished his work.

The same goes if I work a long shift and he morning.

If we have two cars - one of each (I've always fancied a Honda Jazz :-D), I can go home at 5pm and perhaps cook dinner while waiting for dear husband to come home.

But, if we have two cars that means in the morning both of us have to drive off separately.
We wake up at the same time, go down the apartment at the same time but drives off separately and look for a parking space separately. Not only it takes the already limited parking spaces but that will also mean Akmal and I will have less time together.

The journeys to and fro work are the time where we update each other - considering the busy schedule we have as house officers*.
I can't imagine having to drive to work separately.

So maybe...I'll hold off my Honda Jazz for now.
I can't afford it yet, anyway

- Because life is a test -

*This post originally posted on 15th Dec 2015.
In a diff blog, when I lost access to this blog*


-AkMaR-
http://nur-akmar.blogspot.com

I am sorry I can't save your baby

Assalammualaikum.
Okay so now I am almost at the end of my 3rd posting; Obstetrics and Gynaecology.

Obstetrics is when women pregnant more than 23 weeks are concerned, while Gynaecology deals with all women (physical) women-health problems, and if their pregnancy is less than 23 weeks old.

Get it?

You know in the movies and dramas where when a woman lost her pregnancy in an accident or something, the doctor will come up to her and say, "I am sorry we lost your baby" - in a solemn, empathic, guilty face?

I am very sorry to say it doesn't happen like that in real life.

Most women I met during my Gynaecology posting are women who have just had a miscarriage.
The foetus they carried just died - like that. Gone.

Most of the time, these women might be pregnant for 8 - 10 weeks (that is 2 months you know) and then they had a PV bleed and when we scanned, there is no foetal heart. The foetus died.
And we simply say, "The foetus doesn't make it" or in Malay, "Baby ni tak jadi"
And we take it scientifically - the sperm and ovum met, fertilised and divided. But the mitosis that happened may have gone wrong, the chromosomes that resulted is not compatible with life and the cells degenerate. That is the most common cause of miscarriages.

But to the woman, the thing that have died are not just cells.
The thing they carried in them were their babies - who they might have been very excited about. Who they might have imagined what gender could it be, how to call the babies, how should the babies call them - Mama? Papa? Daddy ummi abi?

To avoid having to deal with their emotions, I noticed that we tend to shut our emotions away from it. And by "we", I meant doctors.
What do I do if this woman in front of me broke into tears?
I have like 3 other women waiting outside the door, that might have had a miscarriage as well.
Can I afford to tackle this woman's tears? And all the women after this?

So I noticed that what "we" usually do is to say - "the baby doesn't make it"
And let the woman's family deal with her emotions - usually her husband is outside the door as well. We will call the husband in and explain.
We give them an appointment date - to rescan and the foetal heart is still absent, offer her a treatment - to remove the dead cells surgically or medically.

It's all so scientific.
There is no emotion.
But if i were to put emotions in dealing with all my patients - won't it be too tiring for me?
I will be sharing emotions with 20 sad women a day - everyday.


I am sorry your baby died, there is nothing I can do to save the baby, I know this is hard for you but you have to accept this, you can try again.

-Because life is a test-

*This was originally written on 8th Dec 2015. The time when I lost access to this blog, hence I created another blog.


-AkMaR-
http://nur-akmar.blogspot.com

Weddings Here and There

Assalammualaikum.

A few years back, my phone gallery used to be full of outings or lecture slides that we were too lazy to copy on paper - but ended up not copying them pun at home.

Once I started working, my phone gallery became full of foot ulcer pics, scans and xray images.
You wont want to start scrolling through my gallery. My younger sister almost cried seeing the gory pictures.
Not to forget, the weekly timetables since sometime the timetable of the week was changed so many times we have many versions of it.

I am wiser now.
I've disable the auto-download feature on WhatsApp. That means I can choose not to download those gory pictures.
And I make it a point to delete those pictures every few months.
So I dont have that much of them now.

I went thru my phone galleries lately.
And I noticed there were so many wedding pictures.
My circle of friends is expanding.
People I know is getting engaged / married.
I used to go to my parent's friend's children's wedding.
Not anymore. I now go to my friend's wedding.

So these are the collection of weddings Akmal and I attended since our own wedding last April.

Of course, we shall start from my very own wedding.

♥11 April 2015♥

22 Nov 2015
Zawanah and Izzat's wedding.
They were both my seniors in my workplace.
People say they err got closer during Orthopaedics posting - which was my first posting.
And I was so clueless!

The house officers and little ones!

Syaira, me and Alia.

2 April 2016
Syahidah's wedding.
My 3 year housemate in Preston.
I don't know when she get to know this man, she was always very secretive 😒

Ibrizah and husband. She got married too in Singapore but I couldn' make it 😞

Well, as usual. Bobby @ Zulhilmi was Syahidah's photographer too

30 April 2016
Akmal's INTEC mate wedding
@ Perbadanan Putrajaya
- well I don't know much about this couple but I think they know each other from HACC - a club focusing on outdoor activities in INTEC.
I've never actually seen Akmal interacted with his peers for so his reunion was kinda new for me.

18 June 2016

Praba Shanmugam's wedding
Well she was my primary school mate! I've known her for more than half of my life.
This is one wedding that Akmal could not attend with me hence I brought Kak Ra instead.
This was my first Indian wedding and it was nice and I get to meet my favourite high school teacher! (well apart from my mum)

23 July 2016
Akmal's cousin's wedding
@ Johor

We actually made a one day journey back and forth Johor - Putrajaya on this day.
Akmal has so many cousins and many of them got engaged / married lately but due to our packed schedule, we always weren't able to make it.
Hence this time we really tried our best.

30 July 2016

Sharifah Farhana's wedding
Another school mate of mine.
I know her from Form 1 and I used to call her father "Shed", instead of "Sayyed"

27 Aug 2016
This was probably my most awaited wedding.
Alia and Faisal's wedding.

They are our colleagues in hospital.
They know each other from med school and were always being teased.
Their wedding was grand and nice and cosy, and tasty.
It was everything nice, except that it's far from my house and I was stuck in almost 2hrs traffic jam on my way there and then lost my way back from there.

And....
Was there any other weddings that I missed?
Can't remember, it's 1am and I need to sleep.
Fortunately it's my off day tomorrow.

Good night!

-Because life is a test-

-AkMaR-
http://nur-akmar.blogspot.com

Her E-Day

Assalammualaikum.

Yes, I'm back.
After like what, 5 months?

Fuh! Fuh!
It IS dusty, blergh.

*wipe wipe*

To commemorate this return, I'd like to write about Diana's engagement! :p
Ya that girl is now attached ♥

We've known each other since INTEC, almost 10 years now.
A short time actually, from an adult point-of-view.
One more person not to be forgotten when I mention Diana is of course, Farahin.

9 July 2009!

☘ 20 Nov 2016☘

Anyway, tarikh keramat itu adalah on 20.11.16
Nti next year tarikh lagi keramat akan muncul
Lepas raya katanye 😬

As usual, the photographer is the famous Zulhilmi @ Bobby
He's one of our college-mates and has been the photographer for many of our INTEC people weddings and events.
Want to see his works? Here
Want to contact him? Here

I arrived at 12noon sharp.
I wanted to come earlier however since hubs was post-call that day, I let him sleep in a bit longer.
I purposely arranged it so that my off day will be on that particular Sunday.
And I put in a bit extra effort to look nice that day 😋
Wore my byFatinSuhana dress for the first time (simply because I don't have a place to wear it to before and this was the perfect chance)

Sampai2 je I think the makan2 just started.
Diana was still inside taking pictures.
And even though I've reminded him to be my personal photographer of the day, Akmal (and me too) completely forgotten about it hence I did not have even a single picture of the event in my phone - apart from the wefie I took while he drives.

So these are the pictures by Bobby [credit]

So after the tangkap2 gmbr, Akmal and I walked out to err..eat.

And oh!
You know what they say that this world is small?
Well yes it is to some extent.

So Fuad and Diana met each other while they were both working in Sabah.
And it turns out Fuad's elder sister is my MO in Anaesth Dept.
Such a fate!

Me and Kak Hafizah

Guess who else I met?
Farahin!

But that wasn't all.
I was so not surprised seeing her, since we promised to meet.
What surprised me was she come with her fiance!
Yes, that naughty girl is also attached now. Lagi naughty, tunang senyap2.
Tiba2 je dah tunang.
Oh tapi dia pemalu. So they came in two different cars *shy shy, tp bagus la kan 👏 *

The food was superb.
The satay was nicely done, even tho the person grilling it was wearing a Juwett brace and both Farahin and I were so itchy wanted to ask his medical history, we decided the satay was more interesting than the brace.

After the food session, we went back in for second photograpy session 😄

[The 3 couples. Girls and boys dduk jauh2 k. Let me be in the middle. Haha.. Next year baru boleh tgkp gmbr rapat2 skit]

So Diana and Fuad, I hope the best for you both.
Can't wait for your BIG day 👰 !!

As I was going thru my picture albums, I found these pictures!

Taken in 2008 / 2009.
Gambar masa kecik2. Gelap berjemur and sgt school girls.

Sekarang boleh kot beli buku ni and khatamkan.. Hiks!

-Because life is a test-

-AkMaR-
http://nur-akmar.blogspot.com

White Chocolate Macadamia

Thursday 12 May was Nurse's Day
And the nurses in my workplace bought themselves 3 Secret Recipe cakes.
Three!

Barista ni nak buat motif apa sebenarnya ni?

But no one had the courtesy to offer me some of it when I came into the pantry for my quick lunch at 3.30pm
To be fair, there were only 3 of them left in the pantry; 2 nurses with 1 PPK.
Perhaps they weren't the friendliest of them.

But I tried to be friendly, "Yeaa...ada cake.. Nk sikit?"
To my horror, nurse#1 growled.
Then PPK said "Amik la Dr..tapi ni kongsi ramai2.."

I felt like saying Ok fine xpe, xnak makan la"
Tapi nanti nampak mcm merajuk sgt pulak.

"Ok...thank you!"
Padahal dalam hati aduh sakitnya.

So today I managed to drag him to Secret Recipe and have my own slice of White Chocolate Macadamia cake! :D

-Because life is a test-

Secret Recipe IOI Mall

-AkMaR-
http://nur-akmar.blogspot.com

Reaccessing this blog

Assalammualaikum.
OK, so I managed to reaccess this blog
For some reason, it just decided to cooperate with me and allow me to access my blog.
I just had to change my password.

And to my surprise, the HP number and email address linked to this account of mine was Hui Fong's.
No wonder I can't recall any of my previous numbers which ended with XX28

Anyway, I can start writing on this blog againn!!
After one terrible year!

-Because life is a test-

-AkMaR-
http://nur-akmar.blogspot.com