Yes. Just.you.wait.
I'll design a new blog layout, after my exam in June.
I've been browsing through people's blogs and I am getting more and more inspirations and restrictions. It must not be too dark, bcos then it'll be hard to read. It must not be too serious, people say I'm serious enough in real life so I'd better make my blog a bit more girlish and childish, at least there's a balance btw my real life and imaginary life. cewah.
I might use white as background, because then the fonts can be read easier, and I'll have a lot of colours to choose from for the writing.
I'll choose various fonts. :)
And I'll griiin after finishing it.
just.you.wait.
ada ubi ada batas, ada hari saya balas! *eh, ada kena mengena ke?*
Malware Lagii
This one, I really don't understand.
Why is Dr Mahathir's blog STILL considered as malware?
I can't even read his writings anymore.
Does he realise it?
Can't he do anything about it?
He blogs to unblock.
But it seems now even his blog has been blocked. *now, that rhymes*
And it's either I do not read enough news or, the news of his blog being blocked were not disseminated, just like how supposedly-Anwar's controversial videos were.
I really think the media (or anyone behind them) is blowing this video news out of proportion. Shame shame...
Do you know how to read/pronounce "biceps brachii"?
Try reading the subheading of this paragraph the same way. :D
Chemical Sister
My sister is in form 4 now, and was just introduced to Chemistry and Add Maths.
It took me such a long time, and emotions too, just to teach her the relations between number of moles, Avogadro constant, relative atomic mass, volume of gas at STP and RTP, number of atoms/molecules and electron confiq. Oh mann.. I remember being confused myself, but I cant remember being that "stubborn and emotional" while studying that.
And Add Maths, the gradient of a straight line that is parallel to x-axis is always undefined? And why can't (3x-2)^2 be solved just by squaring each and individual constant?
:S
Btw, the subheading is meaningless.
She's my real human sister, not conjured from chemicals.
Lastly....
If tomorrow is End of Semester Exam, I WILL FAIL.
Ok.bye.
Back to study!
-Because life is a test-
-AkMaR-
http://nur-akmar.blogspot.com
I went to MMS just now, to "molest" the anatomy models. But when I got there, the models of upper limb muscles were all so messed up! The individual muscles from 3 models lying on the shelves, and worse, they were mixed with the models of lower limb muscles.
So, I went on a quest.
Eheh..
I took all the individual muscles, open my notes and Gray's, and start scrutinising the muscles, putting them back on their places, on the "mother" model.
I took at least 2 hrs u know! Just to read back the description, action, points of origin and insertion of the muscles and their relations.
And I managed to sort them back :D
I'm sooo proud..
The librarian should thank me, for doing part of her work for her.
But there’s this one thing, I wonder why la, the number labelling on the parts of the models are all so smaaaalll… I can barely read them, in fact, I often miss them.
So yea, that’s pretty much my activity for today.
Last night, despite the blackout (which translates into no fan, no light and no internet thus hot, and serangan nyamuk antarabangsa), I managed to sleep, with my blanket on! At times, throughout the night I can hear my maid and sis complaining and grunting of hot and mosquitoes.
And now, although the electrical supply is here, the modem lights are blinking! Aarrgh.. I haven’t been able to surf any website yet, even signing into ym is difficult, the connection is so unstable. I just hope I’ll be able to post this before 12pm, again.
Facebook statuses
I notice my friends are posting statuses related to either their 1)working lives or 2)married lives. And I have been posting statuses about study and exams.
And I’ll keep posting those kind of statuses for the next 3yrs. Pergh!
Medical Joke
This morning, as I was studying surfing the net, I saw one post about this one medical joke. Heh..
You Know You Are A Medical Student When....
1) You take forever explaining to people how long you'll be in school for, and realise you’ll get a medical doctor title the same time your friend gets a PhD doctor title.
2) You contemplate anything between dropping out and suicide after you finish each exam, even before knowing the results.
3) You get depressed and emotional just thinking about how bad a doctor you’ll become in a few years.
4) You answer every question with, “Hmm (pretending to think for a second), I don’t know.” And you know the most correct answer is, “It depends, sir.”
5) You diagnose every single abnormality on yourself/family/friends as a life-threatening condition. You think the tiny haematoma on your finger is a risk for PE (Pulmonary Embolism).
6) You watch House and ER, and think you can score in the exams and get through medical school. Wrong, only Dr.Wikipedia helps. (well no, Wikipedia is unreliable, I'd rather go for emedicine)
7) You instantly feel that you want to bang your head against the wall whenever someone says “You’re a medical student? You must be very smart then!”, because it’s an unbearable accusation.
8)You work out so that you get a six pack, so that you will make a good simulated patient for the seniors. (Ok my juniors, I SAW you.. Hahaha)
9) Your friend/cousin zooms in front of you with his brand new car and treats you to lunch with his own paycheck and on top of that, talks about property and houses to buy. And you’re still struggling to buy second hand reference books. (not yet)
10) You have exams in a few days and when you try doing practice questions, you don’t know what to do with your pen besides underlining the key words in the question.
11) Conversations with people involve “So tell me what happened.”, “So how does that make you feel?”, and “I understand it must be very difficult for you.” (or "How long has it been?")
12) You have a peak moment in life when a senior says “good” or “well done”; it’s so relieving to know you’re not a complete drain on society.
13) You’re content knowing that you actually do lead a normal and sane life. Even if it’s just a few hours in a day, while you’re asleep.
14) You’re completely socially retarded when you hang out with non-medics as you don't know what to talk about besides your miserable life as a medical student.
15) A patient/doctor asks if you've done a procedure before (e.g. cannulation, suturing) and you say "Yes", without revealing the fact that the previous patients were plastic models.
16) You don’t understand why summer vacation is only one month, although summer itself is three months. (Yeah loh)
17)You wash your hands after meals and the loo using the 6-step technique. (Isn't it 5? Oh..6?)
18) You’re secretly happy that the really smart guy stopped medical school and start complotting who next to eliminate. Just so the normal distribution skews to the left so you won’t fail.
19) Your roommate, housemate, neighbour, boyfriend, girlfriend, any close friends and practically everybody are not spared from being your simulated patient. (SO TRUE!)
20) You can’t wait for weekends, so that you can catch up on your readings.
21) You have a list of pathologies that you don't mind dying from. Definitely not cancer though.
22) You count the days till your next more-than-two-days-weekend-break, which is at least 4 months away.
23) "SOB" means short of breath to you.
24) You know the size of a RBC.
25) Your eyesight has worsened by 10 pts or more in the last year.
26) It doesn't matter how much you study, there is always so much more material to learn.
27) You are more familiar with last names such as Netter, Moore, Grant, Guyton, Robbins, etc than the last names of your classmates.
28) You wonder when you'll have time to get married and start a family.
29) You check the nutritional chart in the boxes of everything you eat. (Not really...)
30) Right before exams, you have a hard time remembering why you want to be a doctor.
31) You don't have "backpain"; you have a somatic dysfunction on ....
32) When you wonder why people are giving you weird looks as your friend explains the latest perverted mnemonic to you as you sit in a cafe.
33) ER begins to make sense.
34) Getting a B is actually pretty darn good.
35) You often mumble to yourself, “F***! Am I supposed to know that?” as soon as you see or hear about some disease/symptom/sign that you completely have no clue about. Then you blame it on the medical school for not teaching you that.
36) When you check out the bones on everybody's plate at dinner and tell them which one is a humerus and which one is a tibia and you genuinely think they will be interested and they genuinely wish you would shut up and let them eat in peace...
Jung Sungha!
I was introduced this Jung Sungha kid few days back (or was it yesterday? I'm so time disoriented nowadays).
And I think he's cool!
He arranged guitar notes of some of the cool songs, and play them!
He played Grenade, Just The Way You Are, and don't be surprised, Pirates of the Caribbean too!
And he even has his own website.
But one weakness is, he doesn't smile!
It made him look emotionless, and so robotic.
I bet if he smiles, he'll look like he's enjoying himself, playing the guitar.
-Because life is a test-
-AkMaR- http://nur-akmar.blogspot.com
Today marks the 1st birthday of my self-bought bear, I have yet to think of a name for him – yes it’s a him. Hahaha.. It was on this day, last year that I volunteered with Viva Palestina Malaysia in their charity bazaar. They had a similar bazaar not long ago, but unfortunately I was unable to join them. :(
It was already too near my exam. In fact, I had to let go quite a number of interesting activities! That included Dr Azzam Tamimi’s talk, Sheikh Imran Hosein’s talk, and some other outing with friends!
9th May is a lot better day than 9th April. I don’t like 9th April, for a personal reason. I’m sorry if any of you were born on that day. This small bear is a symbol of hope and friend to me. And I bought it for, RM2 if I’m not wrong. Who says only expensive things are valuable and meaningful?
And guess what, I am writing this in the dark and it is already 11.41pm! There is a blackout in my house and even though my laptop can survive on battery, the modem can’t. And so, I really2 hope the electric will come back before 12am, so that I will be able to post this journal, and keep up to my one post a day challenge. Tu la Akmar! Procrastinate since morning!
Last night I slept at 2+ am, the latest so far. And surprisingly, am still able to wake up for Subuh and continued studying after breakfast. Usually, if I do not have enough sleep, I’ll “syahid” right after Subuh prayer. It seems like the exam has finally disrupted my sleeping pattern. By 3pm, I can’t think straight any longer, and went to sleep, waking up at 6.30pm! Oh mann… My alarm at 4pm failed to serve me. So yea, I did not really procrastinate; I just put more effort to study than writing the post. Little did I know the electric supply will be cut off 30mins before 12am. :(
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Okay, it has passed 12am and the electric is not back yet. I’m so gonna post this journal tomorrow, and put it up as 9th May 2011. I did not fail in this 1 post a day challenge, I wrote it on 9th May. It’s just that the blackout preventing me from posting it online. So yea, sape2 x puas hati, bgtau depan2. :p
-Because life is a test-
-AkMaR- http://nur-akmar.blogspot.com
Okay, I have to say this, the summative this coming Friday is freaking me out. I have not finished Musculoskeletal and Nervous Systems yet. And haven't even start on the sem3 and sem4 topics yet.
My mother has been worried seeing me studying so hard. Haha! She even forced me to go swimming with my brothers, and go to night market with them - to get some fresh air, according to her.
And since all the plans failed, we went out for dinner just now - my brother's treat :D
Btw, did you notice that the weather has been very hot lately? I have been sweating non-stop! Been drinking a lot too.
Wife's Husband
Last weekend, my childhood friend who was also a family friend came to my hse.
She married at a tender age of 20 and had a daughter less than a yr after.
She called my mother early in the morning, distressed.
She said she wants to run from her husband, who has been taking her money.
And this is not the 1st time she complains abt her husband.
I've been receiving constant message from her, saying her husband is physically hitting her.
So when she called that morning, my father went to fetch her.
And she came with her 2.5yr old daughter, with a moderate-sized bag.
I did not ask what her husband did, she'll tell me when she wants to.
But what surprised me was when she asked herself (loudly), why is her husband not calling her yet. Isn't he missing her already.
And she's anxious inside out because she did not bring her phone charger and none of us at home have a charger compatible with her Nokia.
She's worried her husband might not be able to call her if her phone runs out of battery.
I wonder, was she running away or were we abducting her from her husband?
That night, her phone rang and I saw her face lightened up when she picked it up.
Instantaneously I know that was a call from her husband.
And that night, she asked to be sent back to her house the next day.
From there, I can see that she really loves her husband.
Even when he had been a jerk and completely insensible, she still wants to be with him.
And she managed to do it for more than 3 yrs already.
She told me her husband is a good man.
Well, I agree to some extent.
At least he still stays with her, and the daughter wasn't abused, and they are staying with his family. Things could have been a lot worse for her.
Being raised in a broken family, and having a hard childhood, she admitted to my mother she's used to hard-life. So she doesn't really mind when her husband occasionally ill-treat her.
But I still wonder, how come a woman can subject herself to such an agony and pain, just for the man she loves?
And it happens not only to her, but to a lot of people around me.
I can just hope the best for her.
And may I be spared from that kind of agony.
Heh...
-Because life is a test-
-AkMaR-
http://nur-akmar.blogspot.com
I think it is harder to find an interesting post title than writing a post. LOL.
Today, Hui Fong tagged me in a video in facebook.
Her message was "Nur Akmar lets go!!!!! i step on u....wahahaha"
And I can't stop smiling after watching the video.
There is only one not-good thing, it is COKE.
Apart from it having very very high sugar content, and I myself do not like carbonated drinks, it is also one of the major contributor for the illegal occupation of Palestine.
So yea, if the vendor machine is some other machine; a 3 in 1 coffee machine for example....heh... I'd love to climb it everyday with Hui Fong. :D
I wasted 3 hours today, dozing off on my desk after lunch. =.="
And mama is having her asthmatic attack again. I can't hear any wheeze when I auscultate her and she said all doctors have been saying that.
"Mdm, you are having a non-wheezing asthmatic attack"
I wonder if that condition exist. For a moment, I suspected it's not even asthma. Oh well, I haven't revise my semester 3 Respiratory System yet so I forgot what other respi illnesses that might present like asthma. COPD? Emphysema? I forgot them all :(
Lately I have been thinking a lot, considering the pros and the cons of ONE THING; and I do not plan the disclose it here.
Throughout my schooling life (the time period where I think I am more independent), I have been making decisions but there is ONE particular aspect of my life that I dare not make decision on. And now I have to decide about it again.
It's so hard la...
One moment I told myself I'm gonna do it, come what may.
Few hours later, when prompted, I backed out and told myself "Let it be, for just ONE MORE TIME"
It's like a never-ending effort to change, and it have been going on for more than a year, yes...more than a year.
That was why, my facebook status was "You only have urself to blame when you engage in self-destructing activity".
But just now, I read a quote that says,
"Formula for change:
1) Decide, and act
2) Allah will make it easier
3)And your heart will steadfast"
Yes, maybe I should do that.
Decide, and act.
But I can't even decide yet.
So hard laaa....
p/s: Credit to Kak Dhuha for the quote.
-Because life is a test-
-AkMaR-
http://nur-akmar.blogspot.com
I think it is harder to find an interesting post title than writing a post. LOL.
Today, Hui Fong tagged me in a video in facebook.
Her message was "Nur Akmar lets go!!!!! i step on u....wahahaha"
And I can't stop smiling after watching the video.
There is only one not-good thing, it is COKE.
Apart from it having very very high sugar content, and I myself do not like carbonated drinks, it is also one of the major contributor for the illegal occupation of Palestine.
So yea, if the vendor machine is some other machine; a 3 in 1 coffee machine for example....heh... I'd love to climb it everyday with Hui Fong. :D
I wasted 3 hours today, dozing off on my desk after lunch. =.="
And mama is having her asthmatic attack again. I can't hear any wheeze when I auscultate her and she said all doctors have been saying that.
"Mdm, you are having a non-wheezing asthmatic attack"
I wonder if that condition exist. For a moment, I suspected it's not even asthma. Oh well, I haven't revise my semester 3 Respiratory System yet so I forgot what other respi illnesses that might present like asthma. COPD? Emphysema? I forgot them all :(
Lately I have been thinking a lot, considering the pros and the cons of ONE THING; and I do not plan the disclose it here.
Throughout my schooling life (the time period where I think I am more independent), I have been making decisions but there is ONE particular aspect of my life that I dare not make decision on. And now I have to decide about it again.
It's so hard la...
One moment I told myself I'm gonna do it, come what may.
Few hours later, when prompted, I backed out and told myself "Let it be, for just ONE MORE TIME."
It's like a never-ending effort to change, and it have been going on for more than a year, yes...more than a year.
That was why, my facebook status was "You only have urself to blame when you engage in self-destructing activity".
But just now, I read a quote that says,
-Because life is a test-
-AkMaR-
http://nur-akmar.blogspot.com
